Life has been a bit – messy – lately.
From travel to work events to buying a house (and almost terminating the contract) to the everyday life in between, it’s been nothing short of complicated, stressful, and just plain messy. It’s been over a month since my last blog post and quite frankly I’ve been in too much of a funk to feel motivated to even write. When I asked my blogger friends what they do to get back in the groove of blogging again, they encouraged me to write about something raw. Straight from the heart. Nothing forced. Just write. So, here it goes friends. Here’s what’s on my heart…
For the past several months, my mental, physical and spiritual health has been wrecked. For no reason at all, what-so-ever. No traumatic incident. No intense situation. Life is actually pretty good. There should be no complaints. But for whatever reason, I’ve mad it a mess. I feel like my life is on autopilot. And not the kind where you’re just coasting along with the windows down, a breeze through your hair and favorite music on the radio. It’s the kind of autopilot where you can see that you’re headed straight for a ditch but you don’t have the strength to put your hands on the wheel and turn it around.
But what I’ve come to realize lately is that it’s OK to crash and burn sometimes. It’s OK to feel like you have everything and nothing at the same time. I know because I’m all too familiar with this feeling. But it’s OK. It’s in these moments, these broken, hopeless, numbing moments where you find clarity in what needs to be done to clean the mess. Because it’s in your most hopeless moments that He’s working on your greatest hope – working to rebuild, restore and rejuvenate your spirit.
Bitterness, anger and resentment have no place in a heart as beautiful as yours – Lysa Terkeurst, Uninvited “